Talk yourself HAPPY

feeling a little emotional cause ive to get back to work again on mon (or to be exact, tomorrow) after slightly more than a week of holiday. i would say it was rejuvenating break, although i worry about work a couple of times during the trip. it jus feels so good to not have to constantly worry or be depressed over something, but too bad its over so quickly..

just so sick of working. with nothing to look forward to, just constant meaningless grinding everyday for i dont even know what. maybe its just me? i dunno. missing my uni times, my exchange times. when nothing really matters. i guess thats how “young, wild and free” came about. yearn to be how i was, hating how im becoming. hating how work is lowering my self esteem, hating how my life is so mediocre, hating how i know that things will never be like the past..

maybe its time to move forward to my next phase of life. time to face it and embrace the process of “growing up”. maybe ill be able to do that someday.. but for now, im not looking forward to monday, to the rest of my working life and to september..

When you’re out there doing what you’re doing , are you just getting by.

Yes I am.

I am unhappy and resentful over many things which I shouldn’t be. So I stfu and hide it all inside.

I am happy for u in many ways. But I’m too unhappy about my own life so share yr happiness. Selfish one may say, but I can’t help it.

Tired of putting on a strong front and pretending everything is ok when I crumble and cry at night or even moments in the day. Tired of this life.

It’s 3am now and I’m just cant fall asleep. After working 10 hrs and 10 more to go tml. Sighh

Wanna fly somewhere and just lead a simple life. Even if I’ve to do it alone. If only I can…

Wanna drop everything and just do the things I love and enjoy.

Resentful of everything. Envious of everyone else.

I need a new life. Yet I can’t escape from my current one.